Monday: Free Day - It was all good.
Thursday: I went with the girls from work to La Huerta Mexican Restaurant for lunch. We celebrated a coworker's birthday and had a going away party for another coworker. I had a plan: eat one shrimp fajita and drink water (no tortilla chips, beans, rice, guacamole or sour cream). Unfortunately, I failed to tell my waiter to hold the extras that come with the meal.
There are times when I have self control and great discipline. Yesterday was not one of those days. When he set down a plate of beans, rice, guacamole, and sour cream I knew the gig was up. A minute later, he brought a sizzling skillet filled with shrimp, onions and bell peppers. I ate three fajitas, some beans and rice and I even ate a few tortilla chips. It was really good and I was really bad.
It's kind of funny, but at the time I was eating, I really didn't feel guilty. In fact, I enjoyed every single bite! One of my weaknesses is when I make a mistake on my eating plan, I scratch the whole day and say to myself, "You blew it at lunch, you might as well forget eating right the rest of the day." That's exactly what happened. For a dinner appetizer, I ate a couple of raw oysters and saltines and after that, a handful of potato chips. For dinner, I had a steak and sweet potato fries (with melted cheddar cheese on top). Finally, I had yogurt for dessert.
Friday: The junkfoodaholic within came to the surface today. We had a team outing this afternoon at Oaklawn in Hot Springs. I had so much fun! I started out with $50 dollars and when I got home I had $14 dollars. That's a good day at the races for me!
Now for the bad news: I didn't even try to eat healthy today. It was a total blow out. I had a cheeseburger, fries, and a large Coke for lunch. A couple of hours later, I got a Coke refill. On the way home, we stopped at a convenience store to go to the restroom and got a cold drink. Being dinner time, I was hungry. So naturally, I bought a healthy meal: crackers, a Snickers bar, and a Coke. See, I told you I was a junkfoodaholic. Pitiful, I know.
Well, the good news is that my eating extravaganza week is finally over. I have read many testimonies of people who have lost 100 pounds or more and many of them said they had moments when they blew their diets. They all say the same thing: "When (not if) you fall off the wagon, pick yourself up and get back on track. Just keep going and don't give up."
So I'm looking at this past week as a scratch. It was a learning experience and I'm hoping I don't make the same mistakes again. I do know that I am very determined to lose this extra weight.
Over the past four weeks, I've lost twelve pounds. I have fifty-eight more pounds to go and hope to be at my goal weight by the middle of October. The reason I don't tell you how much I weigh is because my husband reads my blog. Do I need to say more? I will give all the gory details when this horror story is finally over. I will be thin, full of confidence again and not care how much I used to weigh.
I know it sounds corny, but I really believe, "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels". I remember how good it felt to be thin. I want that feeling again, much more than I want to continue being a junk-food junkie.
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